Jun 16, 2020
"I don't know what
I've heard this countless times in working with people stuck in
careers they hate.
I've been hearing it, even more, the past couple of weeks when it
comes to anti-racism work.
This thought is simply your fear.
Fear of doing something wrong.
Fear of upsetting other people.
Fear of "wasting" your time.
You've convinced yourself that other people have it figured out
and, if you could just find the "right" steps, then you, too, would
I want to let you in on a little secret.
NO ONE HAS IT FIGURED OUT.
Over the past two weeks, I've had a lot of people ask me what I
plan on doing with my platform since I've started speaking out
about the criminal justice system.
I realize that their question assumes that I have a
That I've carefully thought of every step and I'm moving forward
with some grand roadmap rather than I saw a need and jumped in to
Just so we're clear: I have zero plan.
These past 2 weeks, I've been overrun with anxiety and fear. I have
barely slept. And these are some of the thoughts that have been
running on a loop in my head:
- Who am I to talk about this?
- What will people say?
- What if I sound like an idiot?
- What if I get it wrong?
The only difference is that I've spent the past couple of years
learning how to manage my mind.
I know that those thoughts are just my fear trying to keep me safe
I feel that fear and I do what I want to do anyway.
I take the first step without knowing if it is "right".
I learn. I pivot. and I keep going.
That's it. That's the whole plan.